Twins 18 month stats

The twins are now 20 months old, but we just had their 18 month checkup a few weeks ago. Here are their official 18 month stats:

Nat

  • Height: 33.25″ (63%)
  • Weight: 23 lbs. 12 oz. (36%)
  • Head: 47.7 cm (53%)
  • BMI: 15.1 kg/m2 (22%)

Avit

  • Height: 34.5″ (93%)
  • Weight: 27 lbs. 5 oz. (82%)
  • Head: 48.8 cm (82%)
  • BMI: 16.1 kg/m2 (52%)

The heights are definitely off again because they are not over an inch apart in height, but everything else looked good. Growing right along!

So where to even begin with these two right now… I alternate between marveling (still) at the fact that we have twins and how I could not love 2 little simultaneous boys any more, and the utterly soul-crushing frustration that comes with trying to control, corral, teach, and raise 2 little simultaneous boys. Plus their 3 older siblings. And these swings often happen every 5 minutes, all day long. No wonder I always look like the walking dead!

I’m home with just the twins in the mornings now while Morrison is at school, and they have actually gotten to the point where I can put on PBS kids, let them play, and get a couple things accomplished in those few hours without worrying every second that they’re going to destroy everything or seriously harm each other. Baby steps.

I’m also trying very hard to keep them awake all morning now, but they are so very fond of that morning nap. When we walk to school they usually do fall asleep when I go back to get Morrison around 10:30 and are then asleep for about an hour, which generally screws up the afternoon nap that I need all 3 boys to take. Nat will go back down fine in the afternoon when that happens, but Avit usually won’t. (that picture below of Avit’s bed with a big green lump in it is him – one day during his nap i heard him start crying pretty hard, went in, and found that he had gotten himself all the way under the fitted sheet without getting any of the corners up. how??) If we drive to school, they can usually stay awake the whole time, which means a good chunk of 2-3 hours when they’re both asleep in the afternoon while Morrison naps, too. It is glorious, but I don’t want to give up all the exercise I’m getting walking 6 miles a day with the 3 trips to/from school.

They do still go to bed by about 6:00 in the evening, and the middle-of-the-night wakeups for a pacifier or just to cry out or whatever have dwindled significantly. Avit does talk in his sleep, though, which is hilarious. However, their new morning wakeup time is 4:45, which does not jive with me. On school days my alarm goes off at 5:30, so when they wake up too early I put on Daniel Tiger and they happily sit in their cribs learning life lessons while I sleep. I thought this early wakeup time was due to the summer light, since that’s when it started, but now I don’t know why it’s sticking around. Changing their bedtime doesn’t make them wake up any later, either. Sometimes they’ll sleep until 5-5:30, but I can’t get them to stretch it past that yet. No wonder they’re exhausted by the end of the morning – they wake up too damn early! Coffee, coffee, coffee.

They love to run back and forth across the house, which is hysterical to watch because they often get going too fast for their own feet and crash into each other. If you give them a box, they could play forever, and they are really good about getting their little toys and books out and occupying themselves. When it gets too quiet in the living room when I’m here with just them, I always walk out expecting to see a disaster, but usually it’s just a lull in their action to watch whatever is on PBS. It’s always PBS kids these days, no more Little Baby Bum. And Daniel Tiger is definitely their favorite. Sometimes I do catch them up on the couch messing with Ryan’s stuff, but thankfully nothing major has been demolished yet. (knock on wood!) They have so much fun playing with each other now, but oh, do they adore their big brother and sisters!

Avit chatters and babbles all day long, saying “Hi truck!” and blowing kisses to everything he sees pass by the window, but most of it is completely unintelligible. All of it, however, is completely adorable. He does have a very distinct version of “thank you” and knows quack-quack for ducks and night-night. He is also an incredible cleaner-upper and will put on any pair of shoes he can find and clomp around the house in them. Nat doesn’t make quite so much “talking” noise, but good lord can his screams pierce an ear drum. It is literally an enraging sound, and it takes every ounce of motherly calm I possess not to strangle him when he goes into one of his screaming fits. Which is often. Very often. More coffee. And wine.

Nat is really good at mimicking words you say – bath-bath, night-night for bed, eat-eat while signing “eat.” please while signing “please,” puffs, something that sounds like Mommy even though they all call me Mama so he never hears the word Mommy, quack-quack, and poop. Of course poop.

They have gotten a little less picky at eating, but Avit still prefers meat/protein far more than Nat. I have switched Avit to 2% milk with the rest of the kids since our pediatrician said they could both go to it now, but I still give Nat whole. Little Natty-Nat needs to bulk up compared to Avit. Avit’s feet, I swear, are already almost twice the size of Nat’s! These two really could not be more different.

Avit is so funny. For as bulldog-ish as he appears, he is the sweetest, most snuggly guy, and he gives the most wonderful hugs, back pats, and arm rubs. He was rubbing my arm today with his head on my shoulder before nap, and I could have held him there forever. Nat is a featherweight in comparison, and he is definitely the mama’s boy of the two. Whenever anything is wrong, I’m the one who has to pick Nat up to calm the screaming. Always me. Sometimes Della, never Ryan, but usually me. More wine.

To make up for Nat’s hogging of my attention, I always try to give Avit some extra hugs and snuggles whenever I can. I never thought twin boys could be so lovable, but when these two come running up to me, arms outstretched in love (not meltdowns), pacifiers going, snuggle blanket corners gripped tightly, they’re pretty irresistible.

It’s hard to believe we’re approaching 2 years with these little guys. They sure can make some days challenging, but then others I feel like the luckiest mama on earth.

And they’re off!

The big 3 all started school after Labor Day, and I can’t even believe Morrison is there with the girls now!

Della and Lana were both excited to get to know their teachers after finding out who they had at registration and meeting them at Meet and Greet, and I am just elated that Morrison got Mrs. Koch, who both the girls had for K4 and who is now paired with Mrs. French as the paraprofessional in her room. Mrs. Koch is so wonderful, and Mrs. French is the absolute nicest person I’ve ever met. The two of them combined is going to be amazing.

The morning of the very first day ended up being stormy and rainy, so all grades except K4 were able to line up inside. Fortunately they were split up between areas so the entire school didn’t try to jam into one place, and double fortunately the girls lined up in the same area. So their lines ended up being closer together than they usually are, and I was able to wave them both off through their lines the entire way. I even got to watch Lana go all the way into her classroom before heading back out to get Morrison for his start.

Morrison has been beyond excited to start this school year, and I love seeing him come out so happy every day. It warms my heart to no end when I hear that they’ve all already seen each other in the hallways, and I know how ready he is to be part of the school community, just like his big sisters. The 3 of them will be at this school together for 2 years now, which will be great.

Have a fantastic year, my loves! I know you’ll all finish taller and wiser than you started – I’m right there with you every second, even when you can’t see me. I love you all so much and am so very, very proud!

#summervacation2019 ~ Fin

We finally got our car back mid-August, and then I packed what we would have been doing all summer into about a week. It was jam-packed, but it was so much fun!

We explored the Urban Ecology Center, went out for donuts then to the zoo, picnicked at a park we’d never been to before, saw a field of 500,000+ sunflowers, spent a day in Madison with one of my dearest friends and her children, went up to Bookworm Gardens, and of course, kept walking. (watch out, LOTS of pictures coming here!)

Even without a car for most of it, this was a great summer home with all the kids again, and I am sad to see it go. But all 3 big kids are excited for school this year, which always makes me so happy. Until next year, summer!

Nine!

Della turned 9 a few weeks ago, and life with her could not be more fine.

She is the kindest, most wonderful spirit and one of the smartest, most eager-to-learn kids I know. For all of her seriousness, it is absolutely hilarious when her goofball side comes out, which is more and more every day.

9 doesn’t sound that old to me, but to say she’s going into 4th grade does. She loves school, which makes my heart so happy. I just hope and pray that she continues to have friends as good as the ones she’s had so far. Kids can be cruel, and I hope Della never learns that lesson the hard way. Or any of our children, for that matter.

She loves to read and adores all things Harry Potter. She enjoys putting Lego sets together, drawing, learning about nature, swimming, gymnastics still even though she hasn’t taken them in a while, and learning to cook. She loves mermaids, fairies, and the wonderful world of childhood imaginary play.

Della is the most amazing sister, and all 4 of her siblings are lucky beyond measure to have her as their example. Her help has gotten me through many days with her twin baby brothers, that’s for sure!

She got to have the time of her life for her birthday this year and spent an entire long weekend at Grandma and Grandpa’s house all by herself. She had an all-day adventure in downtown Chicago, they went shopping at Target (a girl after my own heart!), got ice cream at the Plush Horse, and had a couple dinners out. She looked forward to that trip pretty much all year, and I know it did not disappoint!

Happy 9th birthday, our sweet Della Jolee! Squeaker, peanut, sweet pea. We love you more than words will ever be able to say, and I hope you had not only a fun and wonderful birthday but will have the best year ahead yet!

#summervacation2019

I’ve been using that hashtag on all my summer pictures thus far, so I’ll fill this post with a lot of them. Our summer vacation adventures began immediately this year, literally on the last day of school.

To start off, I took the kids down to my mom’s house on the first afternoon of summer vacation. The girls had a half day for their last day of school, we walked home, had lunch, then loaded up and drove to Palos. We spent the night there, then headed down to Peoria the following morning for what has become an annual Miller family weekend. It was so much fun, and I’m really glad we made it down this summer after bailing at the last minute last year.

We got home from that trip on Monday, then turned right around and went on our own Wisconsin family vacation that same Wednesday. This, too, has become an annual trip, and we’re trying to find the perfect cabin/lake setup to go to each year. Ideally we want it within about 2 hours of home and on the water so the kids can swim and play daily. A clean, sandy beach is perfect for them, but we’re still looking for our “permanent” spot. This year’s place was definitely not it – dirty and cramped “hotel” room, not the best company for fellow patrons; last year’s place was awesome except for lots of ants in the cabin, but it was too far away at 6 hours. So we’ll just keep trying places until we get it right and enjoying memories together along the way.

We came home from that vacation on Saturday, and our car was stolen that afternoon. Super awesome, and certainly not a highlight of this summer vacation, but worth mentioning anyway as we’ve been dealing with that ever since. We were home from our lake trip for about 2 and a half weeks, Morrison took a session of swim lessons, I got the big 3 signed up for the library summer reading program, the kids had a couple fun backyard shower sprinkler days, we celebrated the 4th of July with friends and neighbors as usual, then I flew out to Colorado with the kids for a week-long visit. Thankfully Arianne flew back to help us fly out, flew home with us as well, then flew back to Colorado, because there is NO WAY I could’ve made those flights with all 5 alone. Simply getting on the plane would have been next to impossible once the twins were out of the stroller.

That was a really fun trip, too. The kids all love spending time with their cousins, my mom flew out as well so we all got to spend the week together, and I finally got to see Marissa’s “new” house. We took the kids swimming, to a tiny town with a little train they could ride, made pizzas and s’mores in their pizza oven, even had a Christmas in July dinner. It was a great time. Hopefully they didn’t regret inviting us all out with all the noise and Nat’s screaming!

So now we’ve stopped traveling and get to enjoy the rest of the summer at home. Ahhh… The kids have a number of fun activities coming up – swim lessons for the girls, a drawing camp for the girls, zoo day camps, and Della even gets to spend a couple days at Grandma and Grandpa’s house by herself for her birthday. Lucky duck! We have a bunch of projects in the house and yards that I’m looking forward to finishing up, so it should be a fulfilling next couple months. Maybe we’ll even get our car back one of these days…

I love summer vacation!

He’s four!

Morrison turned 4 at the end of May, and it’s so funny watching him become more and more of a real little person every day.

We don’t have his 4-year checkup for a couple weeks, but I’ll throw those stats in here once I have them.

ETA – here are the official 4-year stats:

  • Height: 43.5″ (96%)
  • Weight: 41 lbs. (83%)
  • Head: 51.5 cm
  • BMI: 15.2 kg/m2 (35%)
  • Blood pressure: 95/68

He still loves all things dinosaurs, Star Wars, Cuphead, playing with his sisters and friends on the block, helping with the babies, and he’s recently started getting into Pokemon cards. The neighbor boys have been very cute and generous and given him a little stack of them that he treasures.

Four has also been particularly whiny for some reason, and he still loves to sneak out of their bedroom about 75,000 times at bedtime each night. However, his “good morning, Mama” each day after nap, random “Mama? I love you,” running hugs, and snuggles in my arms make up for it a million times over.

He’s starting K4 this fall, and I know he’ll have so much fun being at the same school as his sisters. He knows his ABCs, can count almost to 20 correctly, knows how to write his name, and can write all of his letters and numbers. I can’t wait to hear about the days when they see each other in the hallways.

Happy 4th birthday, my sweet Morrison John! We love you so very much, our first little boy, and we can’t wait to watch you grow!!

This is my 40

Everyone uses the hashtag #thisis40, but that’s not right for me. I turn 40 today, but it’s not just “this is 40.” This is MY 40. A number I’ve been dreading, but then again, age is just a number, isn’t it?

40 sounds both ancient and anew at the same time. When you’re young, 40 seems so old. Over the hill… It’s all downhill from here… Old as dirt… The clichés are just so wonderful. And when I was 20, 40 seemed like it was light years away. Yet here I am already. But when you’re 90, 40 has to sound young. I would think so, anyway. Hopefully I’ll be able to know in 50 years.

As of today, though, 40 is good. Feels no different than any other age so far. 😉

I’ve never envisioned life at 40, what I’d be doing at 40, how I’d feel at 40. I have always hated the question “Where do you see yourself in X years?” Or “Where do you want to be when you’re XX years old?” Why do people always ask that? I have never ever been one to look that far ahead in life, no matter the scenario. I mean yes, in a very general sense like savings in the bank, a roof over my head, etc. But not specifics. Ever. Like when you’re on a job interview you’re obviously supposed to say, “Oh, I see myself running the company in 5 years.” Or something equally as ass-kissing as that. A real go-getter. Ambitious. The corporate ladder climber. Whatever. My answer to myself has always been “I want to be happy.”

And I am happier than I’ve ever been. Ergo, I’d say 40 is off to a smashing success.

Let’s review why:

Many people my age are either currently working their dream job, still chasing it, or stuck in one that is far from it. I already had mine, worked that field for a decade, and crushed it. Not that many people can say they went directly to work on Wall St. from undergrad college, no graduate school whatsoever. And not only that, but that the investment bank for which they worked targeted them directly at school; they didn’t apply for a single thing. I can. Then when that part of the decade was over, I found the exact job I’d been wanting since school right here in Milwaukee. I worked there as long as I possibly could, until they shut their doors for good.

And I’ve been home with our kids ever since. From the moment Della was born, something inside me clicked, and all I ever wanted was to be able to stay home with her. I never wanted to go back to work, when I fully expected to be ready to return to my desk after maternity leave. I lost my job when I was 7 months pregnant with Lana, and that dream came true. Definitely not in the way we’d ever hoped, since losing a nice big salary was pretty alarming, but we’ve made it work. And added 3 more kids along the way…

Speaking of home, we’ve been wise enough with our finances to be able to pay this one off fully. That, in turn, allowed us to buy the one next door when it came up for sale, and we are now landlords. I never saw that one coming, either. Life is certainly full of surprises.

Speaking of home again, I recently taught myself how to patch drywall, fixed a rip on one of our bathroom walls, then repainted the whole bathroom. I also took a big anchor out of a wall in another room and filled and painted over that hole, too. Very minor tasks, yes, but at least now I feel like I can actually help a little bit with the never-ending scroll of a to-do list that constantly envelops our house. I also scrubbed every inch of our kitchen floor with baking soda and peroxide to clean off the 8 years of dirt and grime that had thoroughly soaked into every nook and cranny so we can seal the entire thing, and I nailed down a whole section of siding along our kitchen that has been flapping in the wind for years. Picture me patting myself on the back here.

I have a husband who started as my best friend in the world. He lived out east with me for one of the years I was there, and we’ve experienced some of the most fun, best days of my life together. And now we’ve been married for over 13 years.

We have 5 amazing children. Kind, creative, smart, loving, hilarious children. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever see myself having this many kids, but here we are. And it’s not nearly as terrifying as I thought it would be when I was pregnant with the twins. The big 3 are incredible older siblings, and the twins are the funniest little nutballs ever. It gets loud around here, but it’s also full of love and laughter. Two big keys to happiness.

I have the most wonderful group of friends ever. And not just one group, but multiple groups. One giant mixture of different, fun, simply fantastic people. I realized just how lucky I am to have all these people in my life this past weekend, when Ryan somehow completely surprised me and gathered so many of them together to celebrate my birthday with us. It was truly one of the best nights of my life, and I don’t think I’ll stop smiling from it for a very long time.

I have my health, and so does our family. Please, universe, don’t curse me for putting this out there, because I know how incredibly fortunate we are with this. Sure, each of us has had strep throat or an ear infection these past couple months and right now half the kids can’t stop coughing, but that’s nothing we can’t handle. Big picture, we’re all doing a-ok. I can still exercise, which has always been important to me, and, after 5 kids, my abs can still do this. Superficial? Yes, but something I thought for sure was gone when I heard I’d be carrying 2 babies in there at once. This body has served me very well. I hope I can keep it in shape and running just as well for the next 40+ years!

So yeah, I guess age is just a number. My 20s were for working, being selfishly young, and having fun wherever and whenever we wanted; my 30s were for starting and completing our family; now my 40s and beyond will be for raising this family and enjoying every second life has to offer. 40 has always sounded frightening, probably because it sounds so grown up and I still don’t always fully feel like a grownup. But now that I’m here, it actually is just another day. A really, really good day.

I had to take a “last night of 30s” picture last night – it’s so lovely. Please notice not only my awesome winter pj’s that I’m still wearing in the heart of spring but also that the kids have given me their cold for my birthday. Sharing is caring. Also, I clearly prefer our bathroom for staging selfies. I’m really just showing off my newly painted walls. 😉 And I dug up a picture from my 30th birthday for a comparison with my head shot from today, 10 years and 5 kids later. The first 30th one’s blurry, so I threw in the one of me and Ryan, too. Happy birthday to me!